*Breathwork & Somatic Release*
‘The Return Home’

🥀Trauma is not what happened to us.
Trauma is when we didn’t feel safe…
when we had no support…
and no capacity to stand up for ourselves. 

🌱Healing is not looking for cure out there
Healing is feeling it again, 
but this time in safety,
with support,
and with the power to choose differently. 🌱

I know this because I lived it.

🏝️I grew up on a small religious island, in a strict Muslim Indian community, as an African girl who learnt very early that something was wrong with the way she looked and the way she behaved. 

🗣️I was bullied for looking different,
Punished for questioning rules that didn’t make sense to me.
Punished for expressing anger.
Even punished for my curiosity towards sexuality. 

🙊 So I learned to be quiet.
To be good religious girl.
To hide myself. 
To be numb myself and abandon my curiosity. 

❤️‍🩹But the anger didn’t disappear.
It became morbidly obesity.
Inflammation.
Addictions. 
Depression.
Five surgeries.
Cancer.
Severe back pain and so much more.

💁‍♀️ From 18 to 40, I chased the perfect version of me.
The beautiful one.
The healthy one.
The spiritual one.
 
I turned to beauty industry, medical, coaches, therapists, psychedelics, spiritual practices, exercises, diets, books, everything that promised to make me better. 

🪾The more I chased her, the sicker I became.
I was trying to delete the parts of me that were screaming to be seen.

🙅‍♀️At 40, I decided to finally choose myself.
I believed I was safe now.
Strong now.
Capable now.
So I decided to do what I have always wanted to do, and removed my headscarf and started dressing the way I wanted. 

💔And I was physically abused again.
Emotionally shattered again, and I was back to a place I have been avoiding my entire life.

But this time, something was different.

I didn’t choose to stay.

I didn’t shrink.

I didn’t recreate the same reality.

For the first time in my life, I chose differently.

I allowed myself to be abandoned by others, instead of continuing to abandon myself.

🕊️I decided to remove myself from the places that couldn’t hold me  who I truly am

And that’s when I understood:

It was never about becoming perfect.
It was about coming home.

🫂Home to the angry girl.
Home to the questioning girl.
Home to the bad girl that I was ashamed of.

When I stopped trying to improve her…
and started feeling what she was never allowed to feel…

Everything changed. 🌱

Not because I found a new identity.
But because I integrated the one I abandoned.

💚I am very grateful for Breathwork, authentic relating, integration, and safe community for giving me something I never had through my journey:

A regulated space.
Authentic connections to be witnessed in my pain.
Support.
And The capacity to act differently.

Now I decided to share the experience and all the lessons I learnt with others.

💫If you resonate with any of this, you are Invited to 
The return home session at Blossom

We will go through movement, breathwork, authentic relating, and integration. We will also share some key embodiment practices that I use in my coaching programs.  

This session is not about self-improvement.

It’s about returning home.

Feeling what was suppressed.
Releasing what was trapped.
Being witnessed with an open heart. 
Integrating what was rejected.

So you can embody a version of yourself
that no longer lives in fear 
but in choice.

📆Friday 27th Feb at 5.30-7.30pm
🪙120k
NOTE: Require registration & space is limited, no walk in. PM
Alifa +6281339641216
📍Blossom Ubud, Penestanan

If you’re tired of chasing a better version of you…

Maybe it’s time to return home. 🏡